I've been thinking a lot about design and my process. This summer I taught myself Illustrator. I'm extremely proficient in Photoshop but I had it in my head I "had to" have Illustrator under my belt as well. Which is nice, and now I know how to use it. But I learned something... The way I was working? It was working for me. I ended up spending so much time learning Illustrator that the fabric line I was trying to build in the meantime suffered. I couldn't get it to look the way I wanted it to look which was more painterly. After-all, I had scanned in paintings it should end up looking painted. In the end I learned that Photoshop was the way to go for that look, but the bottom line is now I won't have a fabric line out until Spring.
I was truly disappointed about it at first... I wondered if by Spring I'd be come irrelevant in the fabric world. If you might all just forget about me. Or make other assumptions... who knows? And then I realized a couple things. First off, everyone needs a break now and then, and I certainly do. Second, what I'm working on now (mostly in Photoshop because it's coming mostly from hand drawn and painted work) is probably going to be my best work ever. Sometimes it's the knock down that brings you further up. For me, I needed to stop and start thinking about what I love, not what other people might want from me. You see, that's the direction I was working. I thought I needed to learn Illustrator to make other people happy, I thought I needed to go a more "modern, clean" direction... but for other people. The truth is, the second I start doing what I love instead of what I think people want me to do, magic happens. So, be looking for something truly special in fabric from me this Spring.
In the meantime, I'll be here. Painting. Sewing. Designing. And remembering to just be myself.
Do what you LOVE!!!
More duffle bag fun tomorrow!