I got an award... For being nice. Thank you, Tracy! I'm glad you think so...
The sweet and talented Tracy, of junk2jewels gave me this award, and I'm really glad. But my reaction is going to let you all in on the big secret that I am really a very silly, emotional girl. Very melo-dramatic.
I promise, I'm way over it... so, please, no comments telling me to get over it. I am. Really. Sob, cry... giggle.
Here goes:
Getting an award for being nice makes me giggle in a way that also makes me want to cry. It's a sad tale of woe, you'll see.
If you ask anyone in my family they will tell you "Bari is the bossy one". I was always the one "in charge" even if nobody put me in charge.
As an adult, I know this is actually a good thing, but as a kid I thought they were really saying I wasn't nice. The irony of this is that I'm actually a total bleeding heart. Really! For crying out loud, I pick up stray dogs all the time!
Even more ironic: Apparently, that was not what my family was trying to get across (I know this because I've asked... I told you I was melo-dramatic.). Apparently, they just wanted me to calm down a bit and not be such a control freak. Uh oh. As a kid, that didn't compute for me.
I kept the belief that nobody thought I was a nice person for... oh... ever... until (and I'm not kidding) I pointed out just last year that I didn't not like being called the Family "B--CH". I talked to each of my siblings and mom on separate occasions (I didn't ask my dad because, trust me, he really wouldn't have gotten it). They were perplexed. And their reaction stunned me. Each of them separately said something to the effect of , "I know why you thought that, but we liked that you were in charge. Someone had to be". ...Hmmm... I pause for a bit of thought... Good grief, Charlie Brown!
The moral of this story is that I think we all hold on to beliefs that we had from the time we were little kids. And, oh dear, that is not a wise decision.
Sooooooo... getting an award makes me laugh. It's funny, in such a sad, absurd sort of way.
Thank you Tracy!
Later today: My list of those I am sending a "Nice Matters Award". I gotta' mull it over a bit 'cause I want to be sure to say "nice" things.
xo,
~b